One year ago today... I was told I had cancer.
It's the "best" kind of cancer to get they said. It's a very treatable type of cancer, I was told. But it was still cancer.
I have been blessed with an excellent outcome...
and it still changed my life.
Once you hear those words nothing ever really seems the same again. Every time you have an ache or pain you think its more than a simple ache or pain. You never stop asking what if? You always wonder if the next scan will reveal something new. You never stop wondering.
You never stop thinking.
I am trying though. I am working on not assuming the worst, and I am trying to celebrate each time the doctor says "so far so good." I am working on it. Really.
Mostly though, this past year I've learned that I can move forward even though I don't know how stable the future is. I can enjoy the fact that I have a future. I don't know what it holds, but for that matter, neither does anyone else.
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